Friends and Family


My grandma used to tell us that she would hear helicopters approaching her occasionally as she drove along the road between our two small towns. We wondered what she meant because we knew that the road wasn’t patrolled from the air, and we never would see any helicopters when we drove along the same road. I don’t know how we discovered the “truth” about those “helicopters” that were bothering her, but the sound she thought was a hovering helicopter turned out to be the combination of her car tires hitting the safety grooves in the pavement between the edge of the road and the road’s shoulder. (Sometimes those cuts are even in the center of the road.) I’m sure most of us wander into those warning zones at one point or another as we drive.

Rumble Strip

Rumble Strip

Since that time of Grandma’s discovery, I have lovingly referred to those cuts in the pavement as “helicopters.” I have never known what to call those safety features put in by the makers of the road. And I suppose the grooves remained a mystery to me because they had no real name in my world. I just reveled in the pure delight of knowing my grandma thought she was being followed by a helicopter! My grandma passed away a few years ago, yet I still think of her often and get that familiar smile any time I happen to veer off to one side of the road and hit those grooves.

So, it seemed fitting to me that I discovered the real name to those helicopters on my way to a family reunion last weekend. As we were driving with all eight of our children to meet up with the family, I noticed a sign along the side of the road that said, “Center Rumble Strips.” I had never seen a road sign like that before, and I had no clue as to what it could mean. As I repeated the sign over and over in my head, it dawned on me that I was being alerted to the placement of “Rumble Strips” in the center of the road and not just on the side as is usually the case. RUMBLE STRIPS! What a great name for Grandma’s helicopters! And here are two definitions:

Rumble strips are grooves or rows of raised pavement markers placed perpendicular to the direction of travel to alert inattentive drivers. As a vehicle passes over the rumble strips, noise and vibration are produced, alerting the driver they are approaching a hazard. Citation

Rumble strips (also known as audio tactile profiled markings) are a road safety feature that alert drivers to potential danger by causing a tactile vibration and audible rumbling, transmitted through the wheels into the car body. A series of rumble strips is usually either applied in the direction of travel along an edge- or centerline to alert drivers when they drift from their lane, or across the direction of travel to warn drivers of a nearby danger-spot. Research has shown that rumble strips are highly effective (and also highly cost-effective) at reducing many types of accidents. (Wikipedia)

Well, there you go. Rumble Strips are safety features, pure and simple. Apparently they are quite effective at reducing accidents. As I continued to drive with my family to the reunion, I couldn’t help but think of my family and friends who serve as Rumble Strips in my life. 

Thanks, Grandma, for alerting me to the helicopters in the first place. I otherwise may not have been taught this lesson.

I have been inspired to write again. How did this happen? Well, two of my friends have very prolific blogs and I find myself so delighted by their words that I want to tell everyone about their blogs.

My friend, Sarah, writes the first blog I want to mention. When I first met Sarah, it was in the context of seeing her for the first time as someone I agreed to “hire” when I was the project manager over a new Web site at Brigham Young University. Sarah needed an internship and she came highly recommended by the professor over the project. I agreed to bring her aboard because we so desperately needed some help with writing. And well, I really couldn’t refuse, because Sarah came “free.” Her internship was a non-paid one.

Our office was like a janitor’s closet, so there wasn’t much room for the computers and desks and chairs and people. I had talked with Sarah on the phone about work but had yet to talk face to face with her. When I opened up the door to the office one morning, there Sarah sat with hair so red, pulled back in barrettes; glasses a bit thicker than mine, and a stuffy nose. (She happened to have a cold that morning and wasn’t feeling her best, hence the glasses, barrettes, and nose.) I knew I was seeing Sarah, although I had not pictured her with red hair. We became acquainted that morning and soon became friends.

Sarah was a quick learner and started to do the html for the site because the programmer always had too much to do to bother with all of the little changes that we needed. (He concentrated on the bigger issues and Sarah took care of the maintenance of the pages.) And well, over time, Sarah saved the site many times with her ability quickly adapt to whatever task was needed.

Well, Sarah moved on from that job to marriage and now has three redheads of her own. You can read about Sarah’s adventures at http://raisingredheads.blogspot.com.

Here is an excerpt from her entry of Sunday, June 29, 2008:

“As we were backing out of the garage, I looked back in the car and saw the kids back there, Gemma expectantly waiting for awesomeness, Ainsleigh and Donovan giving each other “5″ as hard as they possibly could, and erupting into giggles. And I looked at Joel and then at our house that I love. And all of a sudden I was remembering how, as teenager and pre-marriage Sarah, I envisioned myself in my 30s. There was always a nice home, a husband, three kids. And as I sat there in the car, heading to get ice cream, doing such a simple but familial thing, I felt very humbled by love and gratitude because I realized: I am where I always envisioned. I looked at my kids and thought, ‘Hey! We’re all here! We made it!’”

The next blog I want to brag about in this blog is by Holly. I also met Holly during my job as project manager for the same BYU Web site where I met Sarah. Holly also came highly recommended so I hired her. Little did I know that I would soon come to rely on Holly’s skills, just like I did with Sarah.

Holly and I also became good friends and I hired her again as my assistant when I changed jobs and started working full time for the Center for Instructional Design (now the Center for Teaching and Learning). Holly did a lot of writing during that time and I just loved her sarcastic wit that came through in her words. I told her that she could make millions from her writing. We made a pact that, whomever made it to their first millions, would generously share the wealth with the other. I knew that I would not make it, but was/am convinced that Holly would/will arrive at her millions just in time to save me from myself.

You can read all about Holly’s adventures at http://bosscox.wordpress.com. Here is an excerpt from a recent entry where she talks about all of the things she should never have to do alone:

“Yesterday we got a letter in the mail informing us that we don’t have the proper plumbing on our sprinkling system, and have 30 days to rectify this before the city turns our water off. Now, I could have SWORN we installed the backflow thingermajig when we put in the sprinkling system. That’s all up in the air still … but in the meantime, that means that my evening was full of fix the house-type things. Including a visit to the least favorite part of our house … the crawl space.”

The first real snow of the season is falling. The children immediately run outside into the crisp morning, wrapped in whatever they can quickly grab. I put a pan of hot chocolate on the stove. The front door opens and closes several times, wafting bursts of cold air into the house.

Faint sounds of laughter and pain (“Mom, Michael threw a snowball at me!”) drift through steamed windows. In one of my peeks through the frost I see snow and leaves and scarves and gloves and bodies all mixed together.

Red noses find there way back to me. Words are spoken through shivering smiles. I help cold arms and hands remove damp clothing. As I set aside the coats, my stocking feet absorb the melted remains.

I invite the adventurers into the kitchen. I stir the chocolate milk.

As I dip a cup into the pot, a memory of my mother touches my soul. My arm becomes her arm, mixing and pouring. My heart becomes her heart….embracing and loving.

Mom and children
My mother, Joan, is holding my sister Yolonda on her lap.
I’m next with my arms around my mother and my brother, Shane.
My sister Yvonne is between us.

This picture was taken on our porch in Farmington, New Mexico (Foothill Drive).

I just noticed that my calendar on the wall was still on the February page, so I flipped over to March. I purchased the calendar at a 70% off sale at Hallmark. As I looked through the calendar, I saw that each month had the same smaller picture in the top right corner.

Jean Monti's art

Something to Treasure by Jean Monti.
(Click on the picture to get to the gallery.)

That little picture is shown above. And the picture represents to me a way of life I would like to have, yet don’t now enjoy. The name of the artist is Jean Monti and I will look more into her work.
With the turning of the calendar, I tried to think about what I learned in February that was of significance to my entrance into March. One quote kept coming to my mind: “It’s easier to keep up than to catch up.” A friend shared this saying with me several months ago while we were running together and I’ve come to appreciate the wisdom wrapped in these words. And I’ve thought much about this quote during the last couple of weeks. Right now I’ve been catching up and so the lifestyle celebrated in the Something to Treasure picture is not yet within my grasp. The question comes to my mind: “How will I ever keep up? I can’t even catch up!”
On February 13 I attended a Brigham Young University campus devotional given by Sister Bonnie Parkin, General Relief Society President of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Her counsel was for us to “act on every generous thought.” Since receiving her counsel, I have tried to follow her words.
I think my experiences in February that resulted from carrying out these good thoughts have made me want to not ever be on the catching-up end, at least in this category of my life. So, I’ve resolved to start in this area called “good intentions” and see if I can smoothly execute each day those feelings to “act” that are generously generated in my heart. Hopefully, as I do so, other areas of my life will follow suit. And as I turn the calendar for April, I hope that I will be a few steps closer to that swing on the porch with a child in my lap.

I called two of my close friends today who live on opposite sides of the country from me, just to connect and find myself again. Events in my life are pushing me to change. I can feel that I need to change. I have been confronted with some hard issues that I need to face head-on. I hoped that through talking with these friends, I would hear words that were tailored for me to hear—that they would help me see what I wasn’t seeing. I knew they would be honest with me—brutally honest—because of their love for me. And I was right. Their honesty pulled me back to a confidence in myself that I haven’t known for quite some time.

During my second conversation, I realized that both of these friends had attended my wedding. Their presence supported me then, and they both have been constants in my life for over 20 years. I have several friends that fit into this category of “constancy” among all of my changes and iterations. And although I miss their physical presence in my life because of the distance that separates our homes, I can connect with them through the phone or by email. When I asked one of my friends today how she copes in times of stress, she said “Connecting with people I love is my lifeline.” And I realized that part of my immediate concerns were relieved through the lifelines I was tossed today by these simple connections with my friends.

And connecting for me also comes in the form of close physical presence with friends—being in the same room and sharing the same space. I love existing in the presence of people whom I love and who love me. I find such delight and comfort from friends with pure hearts! Their hearts are pure because they are full of love and light. And from these hearts come kind words and gentle touches—confirmations that I am human and alive and loved. The gift of presence is the most cherished offering I desire from those close to me.

Leo Buscaglia, in his book Loving Each Other: The Challenge of Human Relationships, said,

“The need for physical closeness seems to become most apparent at times of catastrophe. After earthquakes, floods and severe accidents, we rush desperately to seek security in the arms of another human being. …It is natural for us to show affection.”

He goes on to say that we need each other every day, not just in times of calamity. I am finding that every day I need this closeness with family and friends—that every day the extended reach from a friend brings me closer to my true self. For example, the other day a friend of mine gave me a hug when she could see I was crying. There was no hesitation between her seeing a tear on my face and the embrace she offered. Her lifeline was immediate. I hope I can do the same when it’s my turn to connect.

Last year at this time I started a class in instructional design languages taught by Dr. Andrew Gibbons. As I looked back today on some of my journal entries for January of last year (just to see if I have made the progress I intended to make), I was intrigued by what I recorded about something he said in one of his first lectures. He talked about being purposeful in our communication—that effectiveness takes design in how we communicate.

I like what Dr. Gibbons said when he mentioned “purposeful” communication. John Durham Peters, in his book Speaking Into the Air: A History of the Idea of Communication defines communication as the “orchestration of collective being.” The word “orchestration” in this definition implies purposefulness and design. We sometimes should design before we speak/communicate. Dr. Gibbons also mentioned that we create energy as we deal with each other.

Sometimes this energy is created through difference because whenever there is a contrast there is information. (This reminds me of Follett’s ideas about difference…that we can only create with difference and that the crux of all human progress is meeting the clash of difference.) He said that the natural processes depend on the transfer of energy and the transfer of information and that as we communicate we propagate energy and information into the world around us.

So….I learned today the importance of designing before speaking—being purposeful in my communications because of the energy factor—the idea that we can create energy and information and send it into the world in a purposeful way. My day had some particularly hard moments and instead of trying to orchestrate collective being and harness the energy of difference, I ended up propagating negative energy (which is not purposeful and doesn’t orchestrate togetherness). I want to be able to be more purposeful in the communications of my life and be able to send out wonderful energy into the world around me.

I started writing a note to a BYU colleague this afternoon and wanted to convey my appreciation to him of having him in my life while at BYU. Learnings packed themselves into this year. I started a new line of work this March outside of the BYU arena after more than eight years at BYU (three years part-time, five years full-time). All along the way since leaving BYU, I have reflected on the network of friends and collegues who supported me in my efforts to get my masters degree and in my work as an instructional designer at the Center for Instructional Design.

A quote from Mary Parker Follett came to my mind as I thought how I could describe what is in my heart today for those with whom I now associate and have have shared association. Here’s that quote:

Every man comes to us with a golden gift in his heart. Do we dare, therefore, avoid any man? If I stay by myself on my little self-made pedestal, I narrow myself down to my own personal equation of error. If I go to all my neighbors, my own life increases in multiple measure. The aim of each of us should be to live in the lives of all. Those fringes which connect my life with the life of every other human being in the world are the inlets by which the central forces flow into me. I am a worse lawyer, a worse teacher, a worse doctor if I do not know these wider contacts. Let us seek then those bonds which unite us with every other life. Then do we find reality, only in union, never in isolation.”

But it must be a significant union, never a mere coming together. How we waste immeasureable force in much of our social life in a mere tossing of the ball, on the merest externality and travesty of a common life which we do not penetrate for the secret at its heart. The quest of life and the meaning of life is reality. We may flit on the surface as gnats in the sunlight, but in each of us, however overlaid, is the hunger and thirst for realness, for substance. We must plunge down to find our treasure. The core of a worthy associated life is the call of reality to reality, the calling and answering and the bringing it forth from the depths forever more and more. To go to meet our fellows is to go out and let the winds of Heaven blow upon us – we throw ourselves open to every breath and current which spring from this meeting of life’s vital forces.”

—————Mary Parker Follett, The New State, chapter 12, 1918